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mnmI hear so much about Fatherless sons/daughters.  But what about Motherless daughters?  This may sound cliché’ but there is significance behind my love for Marilyn Monroe.  I understand her feelings of loneliness, anxiety ridden, so misunderstood…Most will say she was a sex symbol because she was a loose woman. I disagree, I see a Motherless daughter who wanted to be LOVED.  Not for her body but for the Real Norma Jean Baker (M.M.)  I tend to believe dreaming is better than thinking sometimes, as did she.  Mental Illness can make you feel so isolated so alienated from Earth because it is such a misunderstood epidemic.  Anyway, I am 29 years old and I feel like a little girl. Feel like I cant make decisions right or confidently, feel like I am not worthy but deep down I know I deserve more…No sense I know.  I feel like I don’t know how to figure out who I am.  When you are tore down and names are thrown at you by people that are supposed to be your biggest fan, its hard to shake off.  It debilitates you, stresses you so that you become physically sick.  So I cling harder and closer to Jesus.  For He is my only TRUE friend.